let go
Letting go used to be so difficult for me. It’s really not anymore. You might think I sound emotionless or cold but that’s far from the truth. If you knew how many emotions I have invested into the wrong people you would understand. I’m tired of it. I’m being selfish for once and I’m not sorry.
I’ve cried over too many people that never shed a tear over me. I’ve spent money on people who have never spent a dollar on me. I’ve gotten angry over things that weren’t worth being angry over. I’ve brought people into my family that never deserved to be there in the first place. I’ve wasted my time dealing with people and situations that were never worth dealing with.
So please forgive me if my tolerance for bullshit isn’t as high as it used to be.
Things like this used to bother me until they were fixed. But I’ve learned with time that life goes on. This is a normal part of growing up.
Quality is so much more important than quantity. I’d much rather have one real friend than ten fake ones.
Letting go is important because it allows you to find people who are good for you, and you are good for.
Having a tough exterior is one thing, but having a tough exterior to prove something to the world is another. Not caring what people think is one thing, but not caring about upsetting people you care about is another.
I believe in karma. I believe things come back around full circle. I believe if you are good to people they should be good to you.
I believe in being cordial without being fake. Sometimes people cross lines that should never come close to being crossed.
Some people truly do not believe that they are capable of making mistakes. I know I have made a lot of mistakes, but at the same time I have never been afraid to admit when I’m wrong. It’s ignorant to think that you can make it through an argument with someone trying to make them believe that you haven’t done anything wrong. It just doesn’t work like that. Nothing gets accomplished.
I’ve been misguided and unfocused for quite some time. I need to do what’s best for me and I’m okay with that. I’m choosing now not to let other people have so much control over my emotions.
I don’t mean to be harsh. It’s nothing personal. Just a lifestyle change…
